FROM THE MEMORY A ROOTED SORROW
Part 2 of 2
Nik Morton
Red-rimmed
eyes stared at him uncomprehendingly. ‘Do I know you, sir?’ she asked, her
voice deeper than yesterday, more grating.
He
lied. ‘Yes, you probably have already forgotten. I'm your tutor, William
Jasper. You have these memory lapses, don't - ‘
‘Oh,
yes, Mother told me. The doctor's making me well... Once I conform to her
wishes, everything will be all right.’ She smiled briefly, then her face
darkened as she looked down at the book in her hands.
‘Why
can't I remember?’ she asked, giving him a heart-wrenching look.
Gently
taking her arm, he said, ‘Let's take a walk, and do some lessons at a friend's
house - okay?’
She
nodded, but pulled her arm free. ‘Aren't I a little old for lessons?’
‘No,
Kathy, dear, I think you're just in time...’
A
short journey brought them to a drive bordered by Spanish moss. The double
doors of the house opened and a manservant said, ‘Professor Gaston is expecting
you, Mr Jasper.’
They
were escorted through the hall, footsteps echoing. Kathy didn't seem affected
by the size of the place, as though used to wealth. ‘Follow me, please. He
awaits you in the study.’ As they
crossed the glistening parquet floor, she whispered, ‘What am I learning?’
‘The
truth, Kathy. In particular, medicine and psychology...’ She screwed up her face, and he found it
appealing. But he must convince her,
must -
‘Professor,
Mr Jasper and Miss Greene to see you, as arranged earlier.’
‘Earlier?’
she queried sharply, glancing up at him.
Will
grinned, more pleased than he thought possible to perceive the quickness of her
reaction. ‘I phoned before meeting you - ever the optimist, that's me.’
Balding
and almost emaciated, folds of flesh stretched across cranial bone, the
professor removed his bifocals and stepped forward, offering a wrinkled hand.
‘Good morning, Miss - ‘
‘Kathy
will do fine, thank you. Thank you for seeing me - us.’
‘Please
sit down.’
They
both settled on an elegant chaise longue that faced a broad rosewood desk with
an inlaid leather writing surface. Behind the desk was a French window.
Wherever possible, the room's walls were ceiling-high with shelves of books.
Professor Gaston fumbled in his fawn baggy cardigan pockets then began tamping
down his briar. ‘Will has told me the little he knows about you, Kathy.’
She
gave him a puzzled look.
Will
held her hand reassuringly, smiled. She was completely trusting - how could she
be anything else?
‘Now,
what can you remember of your childhood?’ He lit his pipe and sat against his
desk, a thick encyclopaedia in his hand. Almost absently, he leafed through its
pages.
‘Most
of it, sir. My father was an architect. I had a happy childhood...’
‘But
he's dead?’
‘Yes,
cancer... He was only forty-eight ... about two years back, I think...’
‘That
brings me on to my next question. Can you come forward in time - when does the
memory become foggy?’
She
closed her eyes, but only tears materialised. She shook her head, black hair
cascading, glinting under the chandelier. ‘No... I'm a complete blur after my
... eighteenth birthday...’ Suddenly, her eyes unclosed and she clutched the
green book. ‘What's your name, I forget so easily - ?’ And she looked down at
her book.
Professor
Gaston paused in his scrutiny of the encyclopaedia. ‘George. George Gaston.’
Will
relieved her of the book. It contained half-completed poems, names and
addresses. His name had been scrawled in and crossed out violently, as had
other male names. He handed it over to
the professor.
‘I
think they were friends of mine,’ she explained. ‘I'm trying to find out who
they were, maybe they can fill in the blanks for me...’
Will
sighed. ‘Not if your mother has anything to do with it, Kathy...!’
‘Perhaps
I had better explain, my dear,’ said the professor. He lifted sad worldly eyes
from the page. ‘If the sense of my explication loses you, don't be afraid to
speak up. Your amnesiac condition will probably have affected your
understanding of some vocabulary.’
‘Yes,
that seems like me,’ she said, interest bringing her forward to the edge of her
seat. ‘I can recognise and use words, they are familiar, yet often the meaning
escapes me!’
‘And
any reading that requires any background of general knowledge is difficult?’
‘Yes,
well-nigh impossible,’ she said, tear-filled eyes enviously surveying the
shelves of books.
Clearing
his throat, George said, ‘I'll resume, then. Over a thousand years ago Pliny
the Elder recommended the application of the live electric ray for easing
headaches, so you can see that shock treatment is not new. Even our revered Ben
Franklin became involved. After being knocked unconscious and suffering a brief
period of amnesia following his famous experiment with kites and lightning...’
‘Yes,’
she interrupted excitedly, ‘I remember doing that at school!’
Her
pleasure was infectious.
George
smiled, pleased for her. ‘Well, he recommended the practice on mad people... But
I hasten to add that mad is not a good description. No more than schizophrenic
and depressed are accurate descriptions... Then a man called Cerletti in Rome
discovered a slaughterhouse that used electric shock to stun hogs prior to
their being killed; thus was born the electro-convulsive therapy, or ECT for
short...’
The
initials elicited a response, a glimmer of memory trying to break through the
darkness...
Will
noticed too, and said: ‘ECT was used to stun the hogs before they were killed?
My God!’ And he gritted his teeth, remembering again this small defenceless
woman undergoing that ‘therapy’.
‘Why
are you telling me this?’
‘Your
mother has been paying for your ECT treatment, Kathy. She must have seen the
damage it's doing to your memory, but she doesn't seem to care.’
‘George
is right, Kathy. Every time you wake up from a session, you are diminished as a
person. People are not people without memories. And the books I've alluded to
and dozens like them all say the same: shock therapy does more harm than good.
It doesn't ease the cause of depression or whatever, it simply makes you
forget. It's like using a mallet to fix a micro-circuit.’
‘Micro-circuit
- ? Oh, one of those words, I guess... But why?’
‘God
knows!’
‘But
the doctor, the psychiatrist, he wouldn't intentionally harm me, would he?’
George
smiled with irony. ‘Your faith is enchanting, my dear.’
‘No,
Kathy, he's probably fooling himself,’ said Will. ‘Better to have a compliant patient, sunk in
depths of forgetfulness than someone who constantly taxes his professionalism.
No, he's interested in the three hundred bucks per session, perhaps, but he's
not intentionally bad...’
‘Bad.
The bad being killed off to make way for the good; I think he said something
like that, Will... Am I bad, is that why - ?’
He
took her arms, shook her harshly. ‘No, for Chrissakes, it's your mother who's
bad! To put you through this!’
‘But
the visions of me - ?’
‘I
don't know, but perhaps the electric shock awakens dormant memories from past
incarnations,’ suggested George. ‘Maybe the shock affects the brain's psychic
potential, latches onto racial memories stored in historic structures?’
Kathy
seemed confused.
Will
squeezed her hand. ‘But, Kathy, do you think that the journeys into the past
could be simply hallucinations, brought on by stress?’
‘I
honestly don't know. What is odd is that once I've experienced these visions or
whatever, the memory of the event does not get lost though memories either side
of it often do - I don't know if I'm making myself clear, but...’
‘Kathy,’
George asked, ‘can you tell us of some of these visions, as you call them?’
Nodding,
she closed her eyes and relived the scene in the warehouse, describing it in
great detail, and then went on to relate her encounter with General Oglethorpe
and the young reporter. Each incident came from her lips in vivid pictures.
When
she finished George rummaged in his bookcase and came out with Gone with the
Wind. ‘An excellent book, I've recommended it to all my students. Have you
read it, my dear?’
Kathy
nodded, puzzled.
‘That
description of your clothes remarkably resembles this,’ he said: ‘It's from the
first page, a description of Scarlett O'Hara.’ And he read of Scarlett's dress
setting off to perfection the seventeen-inch waist, the smallest in three
counties, and the tightly fitting basque that showed breasts well matured for
her sixteen years. ‘The green flowered-muslin is here, the yards of material,
the hoop-style etc… etc...’
Will
stood up, reached for the book and read the passage. ‘This is incredible -
how'd you remember such a description?’
‘It
just happens to be one of my favourite books, faithful to the South and the
Civil War...’ George cleared his throat, continued, ‘As for Florence Martus, as
far as I can find out in my library, she didn't have the name of Katherine: but
there is a statue of her waving. Her story is part of Savannah's folklore, as
is the landing and subsequent history of Oglethorpe...’
Kathy
looked pale, and confused. ‘Yes, but - ‘
‘It
could be your shock treatment juggled knowledge of local history and formed a
cohesive waking dream, Kathy... A kind of desperate retreat from - ‘
The
phone rang on his desk. He leaned across, lifted the receiver. ‘Yes, he's still
here.’ He glanced up. ‘Will, it's your sister, Anne.’ He cupped the mouthpiece:
‘She seems distraught,’ he whispered.
‘Hello,
Annie - what's up?’
‘The
police have been round, looking for you - Kathy's mother has told them you've
kidnapped her! They're talking about getting the FBI! And they have your car's
description...’ He swore. ‘What are you going to do?’ she asked.
Watching
the concern in Kathy's eyes, he said, ‘Well, I'll not involve you any further.
I'll have to take Kathy away, I guess, give her time to recover... Thanks - and
take care. I'll be in touch, Annie, don't worry.’
‘What
about your job?’
‘It'll
have to wait - look, can you ring Adam, tell him everything, he'll understand.
I won't expect him to keep the job open for me, but say I'll be in touch and
that I'm sorry. Look, I must go, we've a lot to do, and fast. 'Bye.’
As
he lowered the phone, Kathy came up to him, rested her hand on his shoulder.
‘I'm causing you a lot of trouble, aren't I?’
Arms
outstretched, he held her and smiled. ‘No. Your infernal mother is, though...’
He craned his neck, ‘George, my car's marked...’
‘Take
mine,’ George said without hesitation. ‘But where will you go?’
‘Oregon,
probably - I've friends there. They might help...’ and he chucked Kathy's chin,
‘... if you want to come, that is?’
She
hesitated - panic wasn't far off the surface, was in her eyes. Everything was
going so fast: not so long ago she'd as good as awoken from a sleep of so many
years... Then, she seemed to make a decision and his heart surged as she hugged
him. ‘Try going without me!’ she said.
Within
ten minutes they had packed a bag of food, essentials and medical stuff,
courtesy of George, and were motoring along West Boundary, headed for Route
17N.
***
Those memories had seemed so
real, though; it seemed impossible that she could have simply hallucinated such
detail of past events... Coincidence? Or had Margaret Mitchell based her
introduction on common dress styles? But the absence of the name of Katherine
from Miss Martus's history seemed to prove George right... Would the visions
persist, now that she was speeding away from her mother and the ECT machine?
As
they approached Talmadge Bridge, she was disturbed to glimpse a violent redness
in the sky to their right. Will hadn't noticed... ‘Will, stop the car, please - there's
something wrong!’
Atlanta, burning...
***
‘What's the matter, Kathy?
Kathy!’
He
was by her side, one hand on her trembling shoulder, the other on the metal
hand-rail; she was deep in another memory, he reckoned, glancing down at her
knuckles whitening as she gripped the metal.
The
passing cars sent vibrations through the bridge; the whole surface bounced
through the soles of his feet.
But
there was something else as well. As the tremor of the bridge ran through him
like a mild electric charge, white spots danced before his eyes.
Then
he saw vivid pictures of flames, and smelled the acrid fumes of smoke. Atlanta
was being put to the torch by William Tecumseh Sherman. On the breeze he could
hear the Union soldiers lifting their voices, thrilling to their commander,
‘Glory, glory, Hallelujah!’
He
turned to Kathy as he felt her hand slowly enfold his, gently prizing it from
the railings. Her green muslin dress rippled in the wind that carried the fumes
of civil war along the river.
From
the far end of the bridge the sound of hooves clattered on the wooden boards.
Two horses, heads nodding as they strained in their harnesses, pulled a
teetering carriage towards them. Will watched it rock from one side to the
other.
‘It's
all right, Will,’ Kathy said, tugging his hand, making him look at her.
‘There's nothing to fear.’
Will
caught a glimpse of two deathly-white, worn faces gazing from the carriage as
it rolled past them.
He
allowed Kathy to lead him to the end of the bridge.
***
Previously published
in Maelstrom, 1994
I drew the
illustrations that accompanied the story in the magazine
Copyright Nik Morton,
2014
***
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